New Vid! can you believe it.

[xandra]

This is dedicated my dearest Mistress Astarte, Happy Birthday. I'm sorry i was too lazy to make you a graphic title in the vid, but really it's the thought that counts... please... please remember that!

Also thank you Callie for keeping me motivated to actually work on this vid. Thanks for your support.

Summary: Brian's pov about Vic and Justin... a less awkard summary to be added later.

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Comments

[astartexx.livejournal.com]

No need for feeling guilty about the dedication being implied, I take all the credit because the vid is so made for me and all my angst-buttons that I know for sure that you had me in mind while vidding it. And your kinky Mistress is unbelievable happy and that will make you a happy being all around once I get to the damn weekend and I can have my wicked way with you for hours on.

But for now I just want you to know that I totally love what you did with the song here, there are so many wonderful parallels between Vic and Brian and I already told you, that it just works in the context of the show were they played with the idea, but never quite made them so outstanding clear like you. You showed that these two studs made different choices regarding their similar lifestyle and even while Brian struggles with the idea of a relationship which is on any level exclusive; he also don’t wanna miss out on love.

Something that just occurred to me watching the finished vid is that the disease-metaphor works on so many levels. Your beginning with Vic’s funeral and the outfall of it and then going to the boys waiting for – how put it Mickey? – a special someone, a hot fuck or the love of their lives, while Brian pretty much stumbled into his. Different goals and perspectives of love brought B/J to various tests over the year and Brian’s cancer, the syphilis and him clinging to his alpha status in Pittsburgh. It always put Brian/Justin to their limits in what they can handle. You showed the danger of living the open way they do, their endless party isn’t just glamorous and if you fuck up you can die. Em praying that he is negative, Ted overdosing and yeah, Brian’s chosen family has plenty of fuck-ups in their history, some of them triggered by stupidity and some of fate. Inside and outside forces and the unique look through Brian’s eyes seeing the people he cares about and loves fiercely but also though, going through life and tragedy while he most of the time knows better, is wiser, has some luck and more experience and a very clear knowledge of what he wants and tries not to make the same mistakes as Vic, carry the same regrets. It’s such a clever vid and a perfect circle, I cannot express how grateful I am for this wonderful and amazing gift and of course you vidding again is the best thing says the non-self-centred part of my brain I tune out most of the time! You know how much I love your fucking awesome mind, my love!

[xandra-ptv.livejournal.com]

wow, you make me so hot. Three paragraphs! Damn, I love you.

Your words actually make me feel like a legitimate artist and not a hack as i imagine. I had a disease metaphor? Really? Don't want to burst the bubble you have about me but I never really put to much thought into my vid's subtext. Subtext just happens. But at least this time the fourth time I went over it I noticed a theme building but I will take credit for the rest of it anyway.

I had meant to give you a title but I forgot and was very speedy this time with rendering and posting… so glad you understand. And I await the pain and pleasure I expect from you this weekend.